Stumbled upon some, read about it, and invoked my emotions about those certain issues, reflected upon them...
Reflecting my walk in this coming three year journey down the road with this Friend i call Jesus, and accompanied by a totally mind-blowing family. Coming here wasn't easy. So much as to say, I always felt like a New Believer born with a silver spoon. I was born into the cchms family of y-hope-ians, and it wasn't just any ordinary family. In fact it was the biggest then. Being born into an environment as thee, where all the foundations were set right and the field all plowed for us to grow in, to mature and to bear fruits. Growing there wasn't though despite the many differences and oppositions faced. But there are too one side that i used to think about a lot. Somewhat so that many a times we often stumble upon why are those who taught and set the rules are often also the one not following what is taught and breaking the rules set. Leaders are placed upon us for a reason, no matter how imperfect they are, how much we can't see why are be under them, they are there for a reason. Human eyes are very much like sheep eyes. A sheep can only see as far as the next sheep infront of him, and basically what sheep does is to follow one another's butt or the shepherd's butt. Entrusting their lives to the shepherd despite the decisions made. Humans are ultimately in-perfect beings, for we are all still sinners saved by God's grace. Mistakes do happen, stumbling stones do get into ways at times. True enough that how can a leader lead without followers. But think about it. Arn't your leaders a follower of your leader's leader? Your a follower, but arn't you too leading the lost around you back to the love of Christ? Standards and compromise. Sadly inevitable, due to the human nature of not wanting to receive changes in their lives, there will come a point where we will start compromising on the standards we set upon ourselves. Due to us refusing to step out or even delaying as much as possible to step out of the comfort zone. Very much a times when we look at an issue as such, we often start to think why are we compromising and often dwelling into the subject and ultimately doing nothing about it. Rather, why not seek continual refreshment and renewal in the faith, in what you believe in and in you vision. Vision leak cause we start to loose sight of it. Straighten and re-align. Come back to the vision. There are many things around that we often see with our own eyes, making everything surrounding the word "me". Think of it this way, God has a purpose for every single decision that is made and God do have a purpose for you to everyone around you, below AND above. It is a decision ultimately when we choose to not only let your leaders be there for you but also to be there for them whenever they need. Instead of placing them into the fault, why not try going up to them and asking them about that issue, and clarifying things out? Helping them go through that part of the walk with them, with God...
Has a lot to say, and alot to complain too. Have been trying to be objective in the decisions I've been making and trying to see which will be able to benefit the kingdom most. True to say that many a times, I start to ask myself questions regarding the word "self" and many how many a times a tend to just follow the crowd and just "let things flow". I must say, I'm not a very good person when comes to talking, basically I'm that kind where I tend to say faster then my brain can start working. And many a times, saying the word "no" is hard. It might seem funny to some out there, but rejecting someone may not seem that easy, and there are many times in a discussion, further elaboration will actually crumble one's soul den to help sort. There are many things that cannot be explained, and there are many things that cannot be elaborated. Ask me why saying no is hard, simply cannot be elaborated. If you understand then you will understand, if not then... There are many a times, we as human being too do not understand ourselves.... For only God understands the minds of us. His children.
Reminiscing about certain events that has happened. Extracted out the clip "I Love This Family Of God" and and... It really felt really down hearted... I guess there are many things in my heart that I have failed as a sheep to express to the shepherds and leaders looking after be for the past three years. The people that haven been there to spur me on in this three years, the people who has been there with me during all the ups and downs in the walk. Many names flashed back in my mind, the names of those whom I have failed to expressed them, and the many that have left and wondered away. The many names who I never brought out the courage to tell them how much they mean to me. How much I treasure the times that we had. The little things, those little moments in my walk. There are many... many... things left unsaid and unspoken... I guess beneath every hard shell that you see out there, there is that something soft... Something in everyone's heart....
Thankful for the person that has been always supporting me and really there for me when I needed help most. Thinking back about things, I would never have thought 4 years ago that we will become the close buddy that we are today, thinking back, who would have though we would come and serve together in this family. Really sorry for not being there for you when you really needed someone, sorry for not being able to stand by you then... Thank you.
*Strengthen, guide, lead
+ AMEN
Child of GOD
Aloysius Koh
a.k.a. aHboy
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